the sky overcast and rained on me. i'm super depressed now. yw reminded me of her.

'u wouldnt even recognise me as a friend on the street. u know how hurt i was?i made a mistake falling in luv wif u. i nvr wanted it to turn out this way. could "hi" was made so difficult? do u still remember the times we had fun together? does it all mean nth to u now? have u really nvr felt anything 4 me? i din wan to fall head over heels 4 u. so im quiting now... but im afriad i cant. my heart leads my brain now.. the satr u gave me. i treasured it. i bring ti everywhere wif me. to sch. to the examination centre. to work. i even slp beside it. but the tears i shed for u were still not worth shit. i am still a nobody to u. and in the end it doesnt even matter i had to fall to lose it all i had to lose u in the end. i cant keep on running like this. i cant do it. u used to run wif me. i fell. u ran off. now when i have climbed up. i cant find u. when i have finally found u, uve already found another to keep on running wif u... '

reading this just hurts so bad. everything was so fine when i just knew you. but things changed, i was shaken.

i was wrong. i admit i didnt know how to handle it well. and i'm damn regretful now. would things have changed if i had shown a lil' more concern to you and paid more attention to your nick? fuck.

i'm tired. tired of guessing why you did it. the least you could do is let us know what you were facing. but thank you so much for keeping the star i gave you.

things that need to be done :
- go mandai cementary
- go court
- go do projects

it's horrible to feel this way.

i would have fallen for you had not things turn out this way. i would have fallen for you if my friends didnt reacted this way. i would have fallen for you if i wasnt shaken. i would have fallen for you had my friends be more understanding. i would. i'm sure i'd. had i have more time and advices, i wouldnt have acted the way i did. i would have been fair to you and me.

i would have been a 100% lesbian. i wish i was. but least i met someone who treats me well enough. i'll show him to you soon aites? please give me your blessings.

i realised i still misses you. you were important to me. but all you had to do is lie abit and everything's gone. i dont blame you and neither do i have the right to. but i just hope that you've made the right choice. you'll never be forgotton.

pink roses are all that i can give to you.

we could have talk things out, but i'm better at typing.





darling, thank you so much today. i enjoyed myself today. i love you.